Lost
Yesterday, G.H. “lost” her “human constitution” for “hour and hours.” The woman decides that if she is “brave,” she will let herself “stay lost.” The problem is that she is “afraid of new things” and she is afraid to experiment what she doesn’t understand. Probably like the majority of people, G.H. wants “a guarantee of at least thinking” that she understands, for she doesn’t know how to “just” give herself over “to disorientation.” She struggles to explain that her “greatest fear is precisely in relation to…to being.” This imagery helps us to see how disoriented the protagonist is.
Fears
G.H. becomes “so scared” when she realizes that “over a period of hours” she lost her “human constitution.” The scariest thing is that she doesn’t know if she is going to have “another one” to replace “the lost one” with. G.H. knows that she will need to take care “not to surreptitiously use a new third leg” that can grow back in her “as easily as a weed,” and then call that “protective” leg “a truth.” This imagery demonstrates how an emotional state of a person with an inner conflict looks like. G.H. tries to reconnect to herself, and she struggles to understand herself.
Thoughts
“Life and death” have been hers, and she was “a monstrosity.” Hers was “a courage of the sleepwalker who simply acts.” During those “hours of perdition,” she had the courage “neither to compose nor to organize.” And “especially” the courage “not to look ahead.” Up to that moment G.H. had not been “brave enough” to let herself “be guided” by what she doesn’t know. The woman’s foresight “preconditioned” what she would and could see. Her foresight “closed the world” to her. This imagery evokes a strong feeling of confusion.
