Indian Horse

In Chapter 45, Saul meets Erv Sift, whom he describes as his angel. Despite having Erv in his life, Saul still struggles: “There was a part of me that desperately wanted to close the gap I felt between myself and people. But there was a bigger part that I could not understand. It was the part of me that sought separation. It was the part of me that simmered quietly with rage I hadn’t ever lost, and a part of me that knew if the top ever came off of that, then I would truly be alone” (107). Explain this quote. What does Saul mean? What do you think is the source of his conflict?