The paradox of sexual abuse
The primary paradox in the memoir is when Johnson is sexually abused by his male cousin. Johnson feels safe when surrounded by close family members because they often treat him compassionately. Paradoxically, the person supposed to show brotherly love and empathy ends up molesting Johnson.
The satire of self-denial
The memoir is largely satirical because Johnson tries to hide his true blackness and sexual identity. Despite receiving immense love while growing up from his grandmother, Johnson finds it difficult to accept his sexual identity and race. While writing the book, Johnson prefers to use the letter 'n' to represent nigga, implying he fears being called a black man. Similarly, Johnson is not ready to accept his sexual identity, contributing to the sexual mistreatment he receives from his friends.
The irony of university life
When Johnson joins the university, he is hopeful that things will be better. Ironically, his high school circumstances regenerated because he received sexual harassment from fellow students. Instead of coming out as a refined person in his early expectations, Johnson felt more lonely and depressed. However, as time went by, John realized that it is important to approve of himself and accept the circumstances around his life.
