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Sohrab tells Amir he is tired of everything. He wants his old life back and says Amir should have left him in the water.
Amir’s redemption is not perfect either. As his feelings of guilt return in the aftermath of Sohrab’s attempted suicide, he feels that, because he was going to break the promise he made never to send Sohrab back to an orphanage, it is his fault Sohrab tried to kill himself. As Amir prays in the hospital waiting room, he thinks the sins he committed against Hassan in the past are being revisited on him now. He is responsible now for Sohrab’s suicide, for instance, just as he was responsible for the chain of events that led to Hassan’s death. Furthermore, because he once pushed Hassan away when Hassan needed him most, God is now taking Sohrab as punishment. Even the relief from his past feelings that he does experience is not uplifting and transformative. He knows, for example, his guilt over his relationship with Baba was gone only because he feels no sting when he thinks Baba may have considered Hassan his true son. “I wondered if that was how forgiveness budded,” he writes in Chapter 25, “not with the fanfare of epiphany, but with pain gathering its things, packing up, and slipping away unannounced in the middle of the night.” (p. 359)