How does Eliezer relate to his home before being expelled for the last time?

Elizer felt numb: he felt nothing,

We were ready. I was the first to leave...I looked at our house, where I had spent so many years in my search for God; in fasting in order to hasten the coming of the Messiah; in imagining what my life would be like. Yet I felt little sorrow. I thought of nothing."